A Day At A Time

It was a busy week for me with doctor visits and procedures so I have spent the weekend doing a whole lot of nothing.  I feel pretty lazy and wish the weather wasn't so cold so I could withstand going for a walk.  But, it is January in Chicago so I'll just snuggle up in a blanket.

I saw my plastic surgeon this past Monday and he wanted to remove the dead tissue from my incisions so I headed back into the OR on Wednesday.  It was interesting to be in the OR while not sedated.  I was able to even joke around with doctor and nurse.  I got a glimpse of the incision afterwards and it looked good.  I've had a special dressing on it since then so hopefully it's been healing nicely.  I still have one drain left and it's hardly slowing.  I see the doctor tomorrow and I'm fairly certain that he'll want to keep the dang drain in.  It will be so nice once I am drain free...

On Friday I had my port put in, which wasn't too awful of a procedure.  They gave me some medication that would make me a little zombie-like but not 100% knocked out.  Once I was finished, I got really emotional.  I'd like to blame the medication but it was largely driven by the fact that I knew I was one step closer to doing chemo, which I'm not looking forward to.  I try to keep a positive attitude most days but I could not be "Susie Smiles A lot" that day.  I'm pissed that I have to do chemo and it's going to do strange things to my body, like make my hair fall out and alter my taste buds (I am a foodie, after all).  Yes, I know those things will come back but it does not make me feel any better about it now.   After the procedure, I had dinner with some friends that I could cry and laugh with, which made me feel better.  By Saturday, I was feeling less upset about everything.  I guess that's what they mean by "take one day at a time".

Tomorrow I go back to the plastic surgeon for a check up.  Tuesday I'm going to see my surgical oncologist for a post-op follow-up and then I have to do a MUGA test (to make sure my heart can withstand the chemo).  Not sure if I'm going back to work just yet.  I don't know if I could handle 8 hours of work (I still rest and nap a lot during the day).  After all of my procedures last week, my body may just need more healing time.